♥LifE= ?? ~**

teNsion tension tension and im real tension right now!!! my mood totally donw to hell... time flies.. . alr 1 and haf years since i enrolled ukm.. honestly, i don't like to further my study in government uni .. lacks of freedom.. so many unfair cases.. and u hardly get the courses tat u reli interested wif..

Biochemistry ~ wt u reli knw bout tis course? a bored course? challenging? i myself oso dunno... too difficult to be described in words... but it jus nt reli a course tat real suit me... im nw in a fit of remorse.. y do i said so? mayb im juz start fed up wif the fan-ness and busy-ness... lots of lab praticals... reports (which i hate most), tis feel grows stronger when u group wif tos kanasai partner)... bside, the book is stiff reading.. u NEED TO or MUST hav a reliably good memories instead of efficient understanding ability.. this the thgs tat fidgeting me... making me feel nervous and uneasy.. next coming midterm which dated on 2nd and 3rd march seems like a big disaster for me.. omg, juz a midterm can bring so big effect to my mood & my routine life as well.. i dun hav the mood to study or search info or revise.. seriously, i lost my interest in study.. getting bored and fed up wif it .. whre's the old me?

Bsides, thre r lots of thgs tat bugs me..tis year, 2008, seems like a bad year for me.. evrythgs doesnt go smoothly.. lots of misfortunes...lots of unwanted thgs happens... and nw, im seriously lacking of self-confidence and i hardly believe ppl arounds me, evn the closet 1.. am i too emotional? too childish? i juz hardly accpet the1 i blv most =the 1 tat lie to me most.. im juz lacking of some self-protection? whre's the safety feels tat i nid most? i guess, i reli need to learn to be :-

1. mor mature in thinking
2. curb my temper
3. build up my confidence
4. stout-hearted
5. hav positive thinking
6. mor determined
7. etc... . ..

I don't want to be a laggard... i shud c the bright side of thgs and cheers up!! don't wanna lost my ownself ~**
p/s . . dunno wt myself talking bout at tis moment in tis blog.. .. mind blanked.. & messed up..